Wednesday, February 25, 2015

What writing does for me

I will be the first to admit that I have not yet found my niche in the writing world. I have written and self published four books so far. I have two more waiting in the wings to finish up working on. I will admit that I have not sold many of them. I suck at promotion. I am not good at selling myself at all.

So, why do I write?

I write not to make money, although that would be a nice bonus. I write to express myself. I feel loaded with ideas and I want to get them out. I just never went to school to learn the best ways to express them. I never took college leveling writing classes. I know that some of my stuff is jumbled up and can be difficult to read at time, but I enjoy doing it.

Right now I am working on a script. I think I am better at telling a story in that way. Only thing is that you can not really self publish a script so I am going to submit it to Amazon and see what happens. I need to research into ways to submit scripts to studios. I think that is still an industry where you have to know someone if you want to do anything and trust me I do not know anyone in that industry at all.

So until next time, keep writing.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Star Wars Rebels: How I Learned to Stop Worrying & Love Star Wars Again

This article is by Eldritch over on Observation Deck

Star Wars Rebels: How I Learned to Stop Worrying & Love Star Wars Again
Here's a confession for you. When I was in middle school, I was THE BIGGEST Star Wars fan ever. I lived and breathed Star Wars. I watched the movies almost every weekend, I owned ever single book, I knew all the bizarre trivia. To my great shame I saw The Phantom Menace not once, not twice, but THREE TIMES in the theaters. I hand wrote a 400+ page fanfiction in the Star Wars universe on college ruled loose leaf paper with my best friend at the time. From 6th to 8th grade, all I did was Star Wars. Unfortunately, it made my life a complete living hell in school.
I moved around a fair amount as a child and I started 6th grade in a brand new place with brand new braces and a brand new terrible haircut. I was screwed. I was also the youngest in my grade, due to skipping half a grade before we moved. Once they got wind of what a giant nerd I was, I was a goner. It was blood in the water and middle school kids are great whites. I suffered some of the worst bullying of my life there so when we moved again, clear across the country, at the beginning of 9th grade I decided to completely do away with the number one thing that made me a target: Star Wars.
In the move, I got rid of everything. All the books, all the posters and toys and magazines. I completely purged myself of Star Wars. When asked by people in my new high school if I had ever seen Star Wars I lied and said no and that I wasn't really into science fiction that much. I shifted my interests to fantasy and horror, stuff like Harry Potter, Neil Gaiman, Anne Rice and HP Lovecraft. I got really intensely into music. I dabbled in anime. In college I rediscovered science fiction with Firefly and Doctor Who, but I was 100% done with Star Wars. Just thinking about it was enough to make me sick with anxiety. My intense obsession turned into aversion very quickly. As late as this past Christmas I was completely unable to even discuss Star Wars without slightly freaking out. My mother discovered an old Princess Leia Christmas ornament as we decorated our tree and I laughed and quickly shoved it to the bottom of the ornament box and swiftly changed the subject. Anytime Star Wars came up, I felt this intense rush of EMBARRASSMENT and SHAME.
While the internet lost its collective shit with the trailer for the new movie, I was in a cold sweat and ignored most of the news about it. I watched the trailer like some people watch horror movies, tense and anxious. I knew for a fact there was no way I was going to go see it. Now I think I may have changed my mind a little. What happened? Star Wars Rebels happened.
I love cartoons. I love them to death. I'm also a little lazy. Lately, Disney XD has been showing my current favorite cartoon, Gravity Falls, with an episode or two of Star Wars Rebels in between. If a four hour block of Gravity Falls was interrupted by a half hour of Star Wars Rebels, I wasn't going to be bothered to change the channel. Often I muted it, or went and did laundry or something. Soon I forgot to mute it. I began to see the same episodes over and over again. I started to… kind of like it?
The animation is godawful. Seriously, Disney should be ashamed. But the characters are fascinating, the enemy is fun as hell, and it's funny. It doesn't FEEL like the Star Wars I remembered. It's more carefree, more about these personal stories instead of a huge galactic war. The Force doesn't feel hokey, it feels more like a fairly decent plot point. I began to enjoy myself. Star Wars Rebels is like Firefly with a Star Wars coating. Its rebels and misfits eking out an existence and trying to do what's right. Honestly, most of the time it doesn't even feel like Star Wars. It's nice. The only time I felt that sharp stab of embarrassment was when R2-D2 and C-3PO showed up because it instantly reminded me that it was Star Wars. Despite that, their episode was kind of adorable.
I doubt in the future I'm going to be a huge Star Wars nerd again. I'm not going to get into big internet arguments about the Disney universe vs the old expanded universe (personally, I think getting rid of all the old expanded stuff was probably a good thing). I may not even see the new Star Wars movie in theaters but I'll probably check it out at the Redbox. I may buy a Funko Pop Darth Vader. I might make more Star Wars jokes (mostly I like to joke about Hoth and tauntauns because it's February on the East Coast and the high tomorrow will be 12 degrees).
Honestly, I may never watch the original trilogy again. I never saw the other two prequels and I doubt I'll watch them even now. But I feel like I can move forward from a place where the mere mention of Star Wars made me cringe. I won't be nauseous with anxiety anymore and it's all thanks to a terribly animated little show I began to watch only because I was too lazy to change the channel.


So yeah, it's been a month

So its been a while since I wrote last. Every time I have a plan to be more active in certain aspects of my social media circles, something happens. Today is the first time in almost 10 days that I have sat down and wrote at my laptop. Between doing taxes and used car shopping and kids being out of school the last few days due to weather, I have got nothing done it feels like.

I am currently working on a script. I have always felt I am stronger at dialogue than I am at describing the world around my characters. So for the next few weeks I am working on this script them I will return to working on my first Dragonbourne book. I plan to go back through that book rather intensely and rework a lot of it. After that process is done I may once again submit it to agents or I may just outright self publish it.

Until then I will attempt to put more on my blog. I think it will be more than just what is going on with my writing. I will strive to put alot more of my interest up on here as well. Until then, enjoy.